January 22, 2008


"The desolation and terror of, for the first time, realizing that the mother can lose you, or you her and your abysmal loneliness and helplessness without her." --Francis Thompson

I was feeling down for a few days my mother and I watched After the Wedding, a painfully beautiful Danish film by one of our favorite directors. I won't go all film student on you, but it's a must see. It's one of many films we've watched together in the last few days with a theme of loss. Naturally, I started thinking about what I would do when she's gone and how it will change me. She was never the same after her mother died sixteen years ago and I don't want to become broken when it happens. We've always understood each other from the time I was a toddler and told her to get a divorce. She's the most brilliant person I have the pleasure of knowing. We'll stay up until ten in the morning watching and discussing films, and discussing anything from the influence of religion on the progression of modern psychology to sexuality. She's my soul mate and I love her to death.
So while the quote is rather morose, the bright colors represent my commitment in trying to strengthen and heal our relationship because we don't know how much time we have left together. So this is ultimately a positive spread about healing. My mother drew the woman in the middle years ago and I went over it with Portfolios. She likes this one best :)
I love how cathartic both art and film can be. Consequently, I've been interested in practicing a fusion of art and film therapies some day. There's a great site called Spirituality & Practice where you can take a quiz that helps you choose a healing practice such as forgiveness, faith, or love and films are recommended based on your practice. Mine is love, hers is shadow.

1 comment:

●• Thereza said...

beautiful page! love the strength of the shades :)